ayah..ayah

i should do this earlier..
happy father's day to my dad aka ayah
i never said 'i love u' or 'syg ayah' to him
maybe becoz i'm not used to expressing feeling with words
i think it's embarrassing to say those words
but Allah knows how much i love him
may ayah always in the pink of health..amin

i think i'm quite close with my dad
he doesn't show much his feelings
but we can know what he feels from his doings
i'm sorry that i always behave badly
always make u do things for me

• washed my school shoes
• ironed my school uniform
• buy lots of 'akok' whenever i want to eat them
• give me money more than i asked for...and the list goes on

i can't do much for u now
so, all i can do is to study harder
and make u proud of me

change?

About 4 months being here, I think i’ve changed
Maybe just a slight change like:

• I got stressed out very easily

• I tend to keep my feelings to myself

• I often take a bath when i’m not happy or feel distressed and even before i study

• I do things at the eleventh hour

• I prefer sentimental songs (especially sung by UN – tear-jerker)

• I don’t really eat a lot like when i was in M’sia (someone might disagree)

• I even eat vegetables and have milk (choc-flavoured) for my breakfast

These changes could be good and could be the other way round
Though i really hope i will change to be better person day by day

my childhood friends; miss u all

My second paper is in ten days
Instead of studying, i watched a variety show (a Korean one)
It was entertaining and hilarious
But the most important thing is it made me miss my friends in my primary school
I went to 2 two primary schools:

• Sek Keb Kg Bharu (standard 1)
• Sek Keb Pasir Akar (standard 2-6)

This is the first time i realized that i have forgotten most of my friends in primary school. Only few of them are still in touch with me
I wonder how they are doing now, how they look like and whether they still remember me. I think most of them wouldn’t remember me becoz i’m such a bad person back then. I got to tease them a lot and not being nice to them. When i recall now, i think i used to act like i know-it-all and was very full of myself.

I really would like to meet all of my friends in my primary school especially nadia, shikin, bella, amin, izzat, azwan, etc from skkb & mami, fara syuhada, ella, mc’a, umar, ridhwan, etc from skpa (i only remember few names). It’s not that i don’t remember other friends, but as time passes by u are not being younger..that affects ur memory

If we have chances to reunite, let’s have a gathering..it would be fun to dig out all those childhood memories and reconnect our friendship.

happy

i'm happy with myself
becoz of something that i accomplished
it was not a big deal actually
but it made me feel satisfied becoz i faced with some difficulties at the beginning
but i managed to handle it..quite well i guess
it was like some sort of discovery learning
learning through try and error method..haha
my hand hurt but it didn't matter

it's right in front of u

i finished my first exam today
i hope i'll at least get a pass...

well..today is better than yesterday
i'm grateful for that

when u have doubt or something is bothering u, just flip any pages of the Holy Qur'an
somehow u will find the answer
i've tried it..it really works
i feel better now
Allah The Most Gracious always knows
thanks to fariena who told me bout this

bad day

there are times when u feel like doing nothing
it is even worse when u have exam the next day
seriously speaking i'm not in the mood to study today
i don't know what the reason is
maybe becoz of stress and maybe becoz of people around me

there are also times when u feel that ur friends are not there for u when u need them
u know it sucks when u feel like that
and u tend to stress urself with that thought

is my life sucks?
at some point, yes it is.
i should pray for better tomorrow